So everything happens for a reason right?

Throughout this journey we have been on we have had many ups and downs. Typically in the Summer we get an email that upsets us a little and it is typically around this time...I don't know why. We got the latest update from New Life, our adoption agency and for getting people into the matching room, they are through up to the end of August 2007. As far as people receiving referrals we are a bit behind schedule again. I'm not going to say how much behind because I don't want to answer all the questions of why, and what makes this happen, and why can't they get dossiers through in a faster time...I can't answer those questions because I don't know the answers...nobody really does. But every Summer they seem to get behind in referrals.

We actually found out about this last Monday. Gary got the news before I did. I came home at 6:45 after camps and he had just gotten home from a really hard ride and blurted out the information. He was really upset and frustrated this time. There's usually one email or notice a year that really gets to Gary and this one was it. He said he was so frustrated that he went for a really hard ride, to get some of the frustration out. Me, it took about 2 days for the information to really sink in and then I was in a bad mood for about 3 days.

I am thankful to be going on our Cape Cod vacation next weekend. I think Gary and I need some us time and some real time to relax and absorb all of this, and somehow find the positive in it all. We are planning a lot of beach time and a lot of us time in the evening getting drinks somewhere, and just chilling out for the two of us. It is much needed at this point.

I do believe in my heart of hearts that the time is going to catch back up and get shorter. I don't know why but I truly believe this. I think at this point people are starting to wonder if this will really ever happen...believe me it will happen. We chose China for many reasons and the journey has been long...longer than first anticipated, but there must be a reason ...right?

I am going to start getting done all the things that we've been putting off. Things like, putting her quilt together, starting her lifebook, making the 2 ladybug blankets I have all the material for and have just set aside. Getting her nursery done, and setting up her room, finishing my China adoption books. We need to get our shots for the travel. Start learning Chinese, and reading up on attachment disorders so I can be more prepared for her arrival, and know a little more of what to expect in that arena.

I think if I start, we start, and finish some of these tasks in some way time will speed up and her arrival will be sooner. I don't know, I am big on karma, and putting out positive to get positive back in return. We will pay off the other tiers of the adoption in the Fall, and start saving for our trip to China, and the orphanage gift we need to take with us.

So we are asking for many prayers, and often, and much positive energy sent our way. I know we've asked before and we thank all who always respond, but we're asking for everyone to respond, and help us out.

Thank you for listening...love to all,
~Alli


May you be safe while you're waiting...

May you be safe and sleep soundly through the night
May you be safe as you wake to the morning's light
May you feel our love from so far away,
May it comfort and protect you throughout each day.

We will pray for you my little one,
Until our time of waiting is done.
We will pray that the Lord keep you safe from harm,
Until the child of our hearts becomes the child in our arms.
~Anonymous